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Tuesday, February 28, 2017

POWER: Surviving and Thriving After Narcissistic Abuse

This article is just too good not to post. Shahida Arabi talks about the tactics malignant narcissists and sociopaths use to manipulate others. The article, "20 Diversion Tactics Highly Manipulative Narcissists, Sociopaths And Psychopaths Use To Silence You" is taken from her book POWER: Surviving and Thriving After Narcissistic Abuse and closely mirrors my own experiences. Unfortunately for me, I didn't realize what the situation was until 15 years into our relationship.

I describe some of this emotional abuse in my book "Mythomania: A Psychodrama." At first, my standard response was frustration. After I discovered Angie's deceptions during the "Summer of Lies" in 2012, frustration turned to anger. Which is apparently a crime in Wisconsin. She ended up using the courts, the police, and her friends against me. But one of the most damaging tactics was exclusion.

Read the article if you can. If you are in a relationship with someone like this, get professional help:


1. Gaslighting.

2. Projection.

3. Nonsensical conversations from hell.

4. Blanket statements and generalizations.

5. Deliberately misrepresenting your thoughts and feelings to the point of absurdity.

6. Nitpicking and moving the goalposts.

7. Changing the subject to evade accountability.

8. Covert and overt threats.

9. Name-calling.

10. Destructive conditioning.

11. Smear campaigns and stalking.

12. Love-bombing and devaluation.

13. Preemptive defense.

15. Bait and feign innocence.

16. Boundary testing and hoovering.

17. Aggressive jabs disguised as jokes.

18. Condescending sarcasm and patronizing tone.

19. Shaming.

20. Control.

Thursday, February 23, 2017

"Desperately Seeking Cereal" Available as Free Kindle Download

Once again, I am offering the sequel to My Worst Thanksgiving Ever for free until February 26th. Desperately Seeking Cereal takes off where "Thanksgiving" ends: with me chasing the thieving landlady Claudia out of the house. You can download it at the title in this text or at the Amazon link on the right. This is an excerpt from the first chapter:




Adios San Juan

After chasing the thieving landlady Claudia out of the house, I decided it was time to leave San Juan del Sur for good. I first limped to my attorney’s hostal and asked her to stop working on my license to practice in Nicaragua. We were about ¾’s of the way done with the process, just waiting for more paperwork to arrive from Rivas, the capital of that departmento (state). I told her about getting mugged five times in Managua, Benny's abduction under the direction of the American embassy, and my five day imprisonment in the detention center. It was a sad story to tell, made even sadder by the realization that my dreams were grinding to a stop.

I couldn’t carry everything Dueña Claudia still left at the house so I packed all of our books into a large box and donated them to a local library run by a non-profit group from the U.S. Most of the rest of our possessions such as clothing and costume jewelry I donated to the women I worked with at Barrio Playa Proyecto. I even stuffed Angie’s “massager” into the middle of the bag, figuring that we no longer had any use for it. I can only imagine the looks on their faces when they found it. But by then I would be gone.

After my donation to BPP, I headed back to the house that had been our home in Nicaragua. I stopped first to tell Abuelo and his family the bad news. Abuelo was recovering nicely after his brush with death. He developed septicemia from a kidney infection and his doctor had prescribed the wrong antibiotic. I wasn't licensed yet to care for patients there so I told his son to purchase some ciprofloxacin at the nearest pharmacy and try that instead. Much to everyone’s pleasure and relief, the new regimen worked.

After giving them the news, I crossed to the other side of the brick-paved street and looked in pastor Richard’s yard for my dog Rasco. No sign of him. Ben had taken the dog there the night before we left for the Thanksgiving dinner in Managua. Since my solo return the Saturday afterwards and again since returning from my forced captivity, I had stopped at Richard’s place several times to find Rasco. No one ever answered the door or my shouts. In fact, one kid ran into the house on my arrival and locked the door. First muggings, kidnapping, theft of our household items, and now dognapping?

When I got home I finished packing my backpack. Essentially everything I owned which wasn’t in storage in Wisconsin or in our car in Dania, Florida I was either wearing or carrying on my back. I clipped a camping pot into a carabiner on the back of my pack, grabbed my hat and bandanna, and stepped outside. I left the door wide open and told the kids across the street that they could have anything left in the house. Since everything still there was Dueña Claudia’s, I smiled at their happy shouts as I walked one last time to the parada in San Juan del Sur.